On my way to work this morning I was thinking about life and how it can relate to movies. I was remembering how when I was in high school my all time favorite movie was “Some Kind of Wonderful”. I don’t know if you remember this movie but was a great flick about a boy who has a best friend that is a girl, the best friend of course being a tom boy and obviously through the whole movie you can see that she is in love with him. Meanwhile she has to go and help him try to win the girl of his dreams. Great flick, had a lot of teenage issues addressed in it, and of course love.
Back to my drive now. I was driving into work when out of no where a line from the movie popped into my head. "I would rather be alone for the right reasons than be with some one for the wrong reasons."
Most of my time in my adult life I have had a love interest of some kind or another. Ok maybe saying love pushes it to far, romantic intrest might be more like it. Now keep in mind I don’t usually go out of my way to find these interests, I think it is more of a happening that occurs.
Recently though I had a tough choice to make. Some one I truly care about and love as a person and as a friend, who I also dated not so long ago, wanted me to meet him for Halloween. Not only that but I know that he still loves me and would want to marry me if I was so inclined.
Not a bad guy, wants a lot of things out of life that I want to, plus I love him (not to be confused with being in love with him mind you). So what is the hold up here? I have been thinking about it a lot and I think that is why that line from the movie popped into my head today as I was driving to work. Silly how stuff like that happens ‘cause really at the time I wasn’t thinking about him at all. I saw a black mustang convertible, and POP “I would rather be alone for the right reasons than with someone for the wrong reasons” was in my head. I think it is a good feeling to know that. I would rather be alone and able to hold my head up, once again (not that I think being in a relationship with him would be all bad, he is an incredible guy really, I just don’t think we were meant to be.)
As sad as that makes me, I am happy as well. It feels good to know that I am doing something right in my life for a change. Who knows, maybe it will become a habit.